| Why I can't sleep? |
[02 May 2007|05:04am] |
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I know.
I know, I know... and I know you know.
I'm talking him up too much.
But let me make this fully clear:
I do not idolize him, or anyone.
People have faults.
That said...
Please, for me or for you or for the heck of it, watch it.
Just one episode is all I ask - one full episode.
With nothing distracting you, and no computer at hand.
Listen to him and tell me what you think about Glenn Beck.
More importantly, tell me what you think about what he is saying.
Tell me we aren't the only ones that care.
I feel... sometimes I feel like the war is closer and deeper then anyone knows.
That it is more then just Iraq, and closer -much closer- then Iran.
It is in our speech, and our choices.
From the choices that I see are being made... I see us losing.
Losing much more then oil or politics.
We are losing America to ourselves.
We are fighting amongst ourselves like little children over a toy:
"I'm right, I get power!"
"No, I want it!!"
But the people - the public that Glenn talks so positively about, we aren't giving the children time outs.
I've decided that I'm not a Republican.... I'm not a Democrat... I'm not green.
I'm conservative, but I won't let that decide my party.
I don't want a party if all they will do is prolong power despite me.
I want a person that will be for me.
Who will do something for the good of us 'United States-iens' ( =P ).
Someone who has the GUTS to stand up for what THEY believe in despite their PARTY.
But I'm asking for a lot, and I know that.
What I want is to have a UNITED Nation again.
Not because of tragedy, but because of success.
Not because we can't keep out the bad, but because we have the ability in each of us to thrive despite it.
I am not going to apologize for what I am going to say next.
I realize now that I have been a 'closet Christian.'
My friends know what I think (I think), and I have an idea what they think and that is when we stop the conversation mostly.
I know I can't convert people, and that is why I don't - it's over the moment I start to think about it.
But then I think... 'what if I've missed it? That little opportunity...'
and I thought 'Even if I did, if it should happen, then it will. I'll just pray.'
But you know what? Prayer alone doesn't work. You need to work with it.
You know what else? I don't want to take away your opinions. They matter, and I don't ever want to change them... But I believe in Jesus Christ with all my soul, and because I do - I don't think it's just my opinion. What I believe is a FACT is that Jesus Christ died on the cross to take up the sin for every single person on the Earth, and for any person that does not accept him as their savior will burn in Hell.
What kind of a person am I to not warn my friends of Hell?
What kind of person am I to not tell my friends of the love of Christ?
I want to be transparent. I want to be plain and clear. I want to be there for you.
Any of you... I really care.
I don't give a flip if you are bugging the crap outta me, or if I don't believe you half the time, or if maybe you're talking about me behind my back, or whatever.
If you're ever in trouble, any one of you, I want you to know you can count on me.
Call me if you need a ride, see me if you need a hug or a shoulder.
I'm being mushy, I know, but the thing is... we won't be here forever.
We might not be here into our old age.
Any of us, at any moment, could just... be gone in an instant.
Poof.
I don't like poof, but poof happens.
How on Earth does this all tie into Glenn Beck of all people?
Well, just that he has gotten me thinking.
Someone told me today that they don't care about some issues like global warming (the scam that it is =) ) or other such politics.
But... how could you not CARE? How could you not be interested in where our nation is heading?
How can you possibly ignore these things?
It's because you haven't seen them.
Our 'Politically Correct' world has ended all conversations for you.
You save your friendships by not talking about it.
Like I do.
The truth?
All of the things happening to the Nation are our own fault.
We can't just blame the people in charge as we so oft do because, well, we put them there.
Worse, as a nation we don't compromise. As a people, we don't compromise. Friends won't compromise.
US vs US.
We will destroy ourselves and it all starts on the most basic level: what it is to be an individual.
All of the things happening to the world?
Well... We're screwed so far up the @$$ that we've lost the butt plug. =(
~REN
GLENN BECK:
On CNN Headline News at 7pm, 9pm, and 12am every weekday.
A clip:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kVYEdeYYEMQ
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| What? o.o |
[08 Nov 2006|02:41am] |
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Life is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up...
I couldn’t vote today. =(
Apparently the form I filled out at the Republican’s table my freshman year at CMU was never sent in or something. I wasn’t as registered as I thought I was...
That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try...
Also I would like to make an announcement:
I WILL NEVER GIVE UP!
I WILL NEVER GIVE IN!!
I WILL NEVER GET A MYSPACE!!!
>=o
You traitors.
Every whisper
Of every waking hour I'm
Choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt lost and blinded fool
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up...
So….
Who let the cows out? (Moo, moo, moo, moo.)
Gaia so totally did during this Halloween event.
I finally went cow tippin’. ^.^
Consider this
The hint of the century
Consider this
The slip that brought me
To my knees failed
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around
Now I've said too much
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try
This is my first post in a loooooooooooooong time.
But if you know me well enough you know all the important stuff.
Like me getting engaged and all… =3
But that was just a dream
That was just a dream
Just a dream, just a dream...
~Neko
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| Well, hullo there. |
[17 Aug 2006|02:08am] |
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Umm.... I have a poem... that... umm... heh. =)
Money Issues
it’s like a zit
building up underneath your soft smooth skin
you can feel it there
your fingertips nervously returning to the bump
and you can feel the pressure
the puss coming to a heady climax
but it isn’t like a blackhead
pinched and gone away
no, this zit is white
and the moment it rears it’s ugly little head
you pop it with satisfaction
you think it’s over
but only the surface is damaged
puss and blood ooze out of the pinhole created
and you squeeze and pinch
but still it comes
and finally you stop trying
not because you’ve rid yourself of it
but because the pain is too much for such a small thing
^.^;;
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| I suppose... |
[07 Aug 2006|11:58pm] |
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I'm awful at keeping up with correspondence and journals and such.
I know I am.
So, I apologize if I disappear and reappear at times.
I'm not dead or giving up on LJ, I swear. =o
I simply haven't givin much time to the internet.
Can you believe it: I'm not even on Gaia very much... ^.^;;
Anywho, what's been going on, readers of my LJ?
I've rented two books from the Veteran's Library here;
I Was Amelia Earheart by Jane Mendelson,
and Why Gender Matters by Leonard Sax, M.D., Ph.D.
They're okay (one's better then the other so far).
Is anyone out there reading anything?
Any suggestions for me after I'm done with these?
Non-fiction, fiction... I'm craving books.
For those of you who don't know (and I don't know who doesn't know), I'm working at Target as a cashier.
I like it.
I have to smile all day, but that isn't a problem for me.
I'm improving my chitchatting skills. =o
And everyone working there is real friendly...
I just need new shoes (ouchie feet). =P
School's starting soon, so people are returning to Mt. Pleasant.
Yay.
...I should stop talking now, before this entry gets too long and people decide to skip over it. =P
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| O RLY? ....YEA RLY! =o |
[26 Apr 2006|01:39am] |
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I've discovered
the problem
with having
nothing
good to say...
Anyone who'd want to hear
cares too much
to let it pass;
anyone else
cares too little
to pay you any mind.
So is it better
to say what you want
to anyone
or to not...
and let it fester?
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| Poems Two - One for Me and One for ___ |
[23 Apr 2006|12:11am] |
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An Ugly Marriage
[A prayer:]
“Eros, Eros, in the sky
Slay me a maiden (not a guy)
With your arrows laden
With passion violent (very violent)
For me in my sincerity!”
Eros is amused and complies.
[A second prayer:]
“Aphrodite, goddess high
I am a maiden true (no lie)
But alas! my love - he has no eye
For the sight that is me (she’s hideous)
I ask you please make of me a beauty!”
Aphrodite finds her gift acceptable and agrees.
[A third prayer:]
“Eros, Eros, in the sky
I come to you in gratitude (wait… wha?)
For my queen, my beautiful maid
I thank you each time I lay (>.<;;)
My mind (phew) to rest at the end of each day.”
Once amused, now confused… he changes his mind.
[Heh heh heh…]
“Aphrodite! Goddess high!
I’m married to the love of I
Who, I said, had no eye
And now I have none for him!
He’s as ugly as a sty
And I want him to see
Just how ugly I can be,
So, please, make of me
What I used to be!”
…I’ll let you end it yourself.
*****
And the Rest Is…
Muted is my world without us
A sound check in my ear
Testing… Testing…
Gone away
They left me for the desert sky
A rain check in my hand
We’ll sing to us
Another day
Until then there is ________
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| It's not easy... being green. ^.^ |
[03 Apr 2006|07:52pm] |
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My favorite colour is green.
I love it.
Green tea, green pesto, green stones, green eyes...
Joshie's eyes are blue AND green. ^.^ How much cooler can you get?
Frogs are green and they HOP.
Green hair rocks.
Green teeth.... well, not everything green can be cool.
'Cept boogers. They're all different kinds of green. =o
But just 'cause I like green most, doesn't mean I don't love other colours.
I heart the whole God-givin rainbow.
^.^
Ribbit.
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| This is the first one I've ever posted here... I don't like to often. |
[26 Mar 2006|05:20pm] |
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Incentive to read:
Reply with three things we have in common according to this list. ^.^ Please?
Four jobs I have had in my life:
1. Baby-sitting
2. …
3. …
4. I don’t work much. >.<
Four movies that I have watched over & over:
1. Beauty and the Beast
2. Ever After (I saw her winged costume in person… and touched it!)
3. “O”
4. Nightmare Before Christmas / The Muppets Christmas Carol
Four places I have lived:
1. In the basement
2. In the spare room
3. In my friend’s room ^.-
4. In a dorm room
Four TV shows you love to watch:
JUST FOUR?! I refuse.
1. Invader Zim / Teen Titans / PPG / Cartoons!
2. Buffy the Vampire Slayer / Desperate House Wives / Humorous Drama That Isn’t Too Cheesy =P
3. Colbert Report / South Park / Futurama / <3
4. Growing Pains / Boy Meets World / 7th Heaven / Things I Grew Up With
Four places you have been on vacation:
1. Cedar Point (Ohio)
2. Old Orchard Park and Oscoda Beach (North Michigan)
3. Mackinac Island (Michigan, silly)
4. The Red Eye (exciting, no?)
Four web sites I visit often:
1. http://www.gaiaonline.com/
2. http://www.fanfiction.net/
3. http://www.livejournal.com/
4. http://grim.snafu-comics.com/ / http://ppg.snafu-comics.com/ <- Fun! (Read PPG first.)
Four of my favorite foods/snacks:
1. Green Tea Ice-cream
2. Lemon Ice
3. Pasta (currently pesto) or Rice
4. Ramen
Four places I would rather be right now:
1. Inside the TV… like in that episode of Fairly Odd Parents
2. At the DIA with nothing to stop me from sitting in a single gallery for an hour or so
3. Walking the Rail to Trail or Ring Wood Park
4. Spending the day walking around STC with nothing to do
Three friends who I have tagged that I think will Respond the quickest:
1. Joshie (TAG!)
2. >.>
3. <.<
… Just Joshie. ^.^;;
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| A Goblet of Truth (continued) |
[22 Mar 2006|05:17pm] |
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(Last time...)
Sherry was in the spotlight again. I was not jealous or anything ( >.> ), but at first I wondered why is it always her who gets the fame? I mean, Ashmione and I have been in our share of battles…
Then we saw what She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named did to Ledric. Nothing will ever be that same again after this. Sherry is brave to battle You-Know-Who, and even if some battles are lost – we will win out in the end. We need to look to Kathydore, because as long as we are under her protection we are safe.
~Ren
Please take a moment of silence in memory of Ledric, for she was the bravest and friendliest of Hufflepuffs. Her loss will not be in vain.
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| Did anyone know the Down Under had computers? =o |
[20 Feb 2006|09:38am] |
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Along the walls of Brooks hall are offices
and it seems that every single office
has a least one comic and news article apiece.
Most of the doors’ windows are covered in science-related issues.
It’s a war zone.
I pass through Brooks hall every day to get to one class or another…
It seems like I always see a new comic when I watch the walls.
Today, on my way to class,
I’d seen a dragon.
With some poor knight’s armor scattered around him.
Below him was written:
Sometimes the dragon wins.
And, even though I love comics,
and I love dragons,
I didn’t see the humor.
(Actually, I don’t see the humor in most of the comics put up…
Were Mr. Holem, Mr. Potter, and Miss. Bell all flukes?
Are “scientists” really that dull?
Possibly.
Or maybe it’s because most of the jokes mock Christians.
It truly is a war zone.)
Anywho,
I had a bad class.
And as I came back I looked at the whole comic.
It said:
No matter how hard you work,
No matter how much you try,
Sometimes the dragon wins.
I see the humor now.
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| You know who you are. |
[15 Dec 2005|04:18pm] |
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Friendship isn't something you can hold over other people.
It isn't a reward or a punishment.
The moment it is, you've stopped being a friend.
I've come to the conclusion that if you use a friendlist to block people out...
You're more-likely-then-not talking about the people you blocked.
While they can't defend themselves.
I'm not innocent.
Neither are you.
So, stop acting out the victim.
This isn't as harsh as I wanted it to be.
It isn't as personal.
But... that's probably for the better.
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| Shhhh! |
[08 Dec 2005|02:39pm] |
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I needs ta be quiet, butbutbut - I wants ta play Christmas music!
Jingle Bell Rock, yo.... andandand Silent Night! Andandand Jingle-bells, Batman Smells...
Oh! That just reminded meh of a song I made up in gym class. =o
Jingle bells, gym socks smell,
*some-girl-I-didn't-like's-name* is a hoe!
*another-girl*'s a bitch, and that other one ditched,
That's all ya gotta know!
...I didn't like gym class very much... =P
Well, at least not the three two other girls in my class.
And the one that ditched had mental issues:
"Guess what my secret is."
"Uhh... you write poetry?"
"I do."
>.<
That's a mistake I'll try to nevar make again.
*shudders*
Lame-@$$ rhymes, little-to-zero plot, all about romance, and...
all in paragraph form! T.T
I still have nightmares.
o.o
Well, that was rather off topic...
Even for a post without a topic, it was off-topic.
[stereotype = "emo"] I fail at posting. T.T [/stereotype]
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| A Goblet of Truth |
[02 Dec 2005|12:26am] |
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Today Sherry, Ashmione, and I, Ren, ventured outside of the Calkins Dormitory. We were in search of …something. Anything out of the ordinary... Anything that might have given us a clue as to the previous incident concerning the trademark Gecko that had hung above our House days before. Sherry didn’t see quite what happened, but we are sure that it was You-Know-Who’s doing. She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named is doing everything in her power to return to power, but I’m sure Sherry will stop it (she always does).
This time, though, maybe it isn’t going to be as simple as a game of chess… maybe it can’t be stopped. What if She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named attacks Sherry while Ashmione and I aren’t around to help?!
0.0
SPIDER!!!
>.<
Sherry squished it for me.
~Ren
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| I was in a better mood once. I sware. =o |
[01 Dec 2005|12:20am] |
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Silly. I feel like this whole thing is silly, and stupid, and…
*sigh*
I want to go swimming. I haven’t swum for a while. (MS Word tells me “swum” is a word, though I’ve never heard of it.)
So. Gaia. Yeah… I knew Gino couldn’t die. Too heroic. Too hott.
Not that I’ve got the hotts for him – but, I can see a babe magnet as good as the next person. All those Gaia chickadees goin’ “GINO!!!! Noooooooo! T.T” and whatnot.
The Cobert Report ish da bomb, btw.
And all of this was thought out in my head in a monotone voice…
I didn’t know my head had a monotone voice. =/
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| Imagine your pain is a white ball of healing light... |
[03 Nov 2005|10:34pm] |
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Buddhism is so.... Buddhist. >:o
...I know, it is hard to believe, isn't it?
Irony loves me. It clings to me like a fleece blanket on a sick person.
If all is transitory, then how is it that life is circular?
The same things coming and going and coming again.
Different, but still the same.
"A circle is round,
it has no end.
That's how long,
I want to be your friend."
Wow.... And here I thought I had repressed those memories. >.<
~Neko
Post Script:
Happy Day, J-chan!
And Steapie and Ash... Wow. Just wow... ^.^;;
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| Kyaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!! (Please read - even if you aren't on Gaia I want your opinion.) |
[24 Oct 2005|02:27pm] |
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OMGOMGOMG.... O.O
They have the new donation items out on Gaia for October:
Wind Security Blanket andandand.... a Coco Kitty!!!!!!!!!
They are EBIL!!!
=o
Those cheaters! Creating another kitty is just wrong.
Those prices are rising past 12k already!
And I wanna Blankie, and the prices for that are no better. T.T
I'm not going to sell my Kiki Kitty for a Coco one and a Blanket. I can't bring myself to sell my MP3 Player. There is no way selling my Butterfly Mantellia and Lunar Cowls will give me enough gold, and I refuse to sell all my store items and slip into Gaian povrty over items that I will not likely sell...
But I could risk my store items, and my Cowls, and my wings and maybe scratch up enough.... or...
Or I could donate to Gaia Online and get the donation letters for this month.
All I need to give to be content would be $7.50. That would give me three letters...
Two to open, one to keep for a rainy day.
But, you see, I have never donated to Gaia before.
I had always prided myself on the fact that I could raise my own gold without wasting real money on a pixelated prize.
On the other hand...
I have never seen so clearly how quickly the item's value will rise.
I have never wanted something that was so unatainable and within my grasp all at once.
And money...
Well, time is money, right? How much time do I already spend on Gaia?
What's the difference between questing for many months and simply giving money?
Pfft. I need a PayPal account, anywho. >.>
What sould I do: Donate, quest, or give up everything I can while the price is low and slowly buy my items back?
What would you do?
And, if you are on Gaia and questing for something unatainable *cough*deviltail*cough*headphones*cough*, would you be willing to put money into a promising donation item, wait until the price is setteled, and sell them for your quest?
~Neko
Post Script:
Is it just me, or did LJ take away your pretty background/LJ setup, too? T.T
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[09 Oct 2005|07:56pm] |
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There was something I wanted to post about... and I forgot it.
...my eyes burn? o.o
I'm on Gaia probation. T.T
I need to get a paper done, but I feel as though I can't clear my mind enough to get it done.
Meh mind ish clutter-tastic.
An-an-an-and, I can't go back to meh Gaia until it ish done. >.>
What I've been wanting to know for such a long time is... why Gaia?
Why am I so addicted to the ways of the General Discussion forum, or the lure of the pix-elated shops?
What is it about my character that causes me to put so much time into something so... pointless?
I could go on and on for hours talking about Gaia...
About the economy of Gaia, the social system, the storyline that few people care about, the discussions, what Gaia used to be, what it is now...
I'll have been on three years this February.
Am I an 'oldbie'? o.o
So... why?
Why is Gaia so addicting to you?
And, if you don't play, why are things like Gaia (Muds, RPGs, et cetera...) so addicting?
Is is because you can set a goal, and ultimately earn anything you want?
Is it because it's fascinating to watch such a concentrated form of our own social-economic system?
Is it just another way to escape reality? (Even though the internet is now it's own reality, and any discussion you would have on Gaia affects you just as any real disscussion would, because it is real.)
...or am I just obsessing, and there really is no reason people are pulled into these kinds of games, and no one's really addicted, because there is no such thing as an addiction without drugs, because the world doesn't exist outside of material possessions, and anything that cannot be proven physically isn't true....so, yeah. o.o
.......
I should really go to work on that paper, now. ^.^;;
Talk to meh, people. >.<
~RenZen
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| .............*bursts out laughing* |
[15 Sep 2005|06:40pm] |
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Vodka
Congratulations! You're 95 proof, with specific scores in beer (80) , wine (33), and liquor (43). |
| All right...you're getting into the harder stuff. A good martini, a Mai Tai or straight shots of hard liquor is what you're into. |
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My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 7% on proof |
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You scored higher than 81% on beer index |
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You scored higher than 66% on wine index |
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You scored higher than 67% on liquor index |
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